There is a sentence many of us carry and almost never say out loud: I am broken. Something in me is wrong. Too much happened. It sits underneath years of therapy, books, practice — and it often sounds more true than anything we have learned since.
This session looked at that sentence. Not to fight it. To ask where it came from. Nobody ever examined you and found brokenness. A child wrote that sentence — because when painful things happen and the big people around you are failing you, a child cannot say so. The only explanation left is "it must be me." It even gave a little hope: if it is me, maybe I can fix me. It was the smartest thing available to a small person in pain. A conclusion, not a measurement. It sounds true because it is old. Old is not the same as true.
And then the evidence you already carry. The love that comes, even in someone who was never given any — it was already there. The ache when you look back at what should have been — you can only ache for something you somehow know. And the seeking itself, year after year. Broken things do not look for the way home.
In the practice we went to that place — through one moment of being simply all right, or, for those with no such moment, through sitting with the one in us that wants things to be softer. From there, the tired ones inside were invited to look, were heard, and were spoken to with compassion. The sound healing went to the throat and the father’s side, and carried one message through the whole timeline: you have permission to speak up for yourself.
This session has two parts. You can watch them together in one sitting, or return to each separately — both are complete on their own. Jump directly to any chapter using the timeline markers inside the YouTube player below
The YOU That Was Never Broken
Session 168 · 18 October 2026 · The belief "I am broken"
Part 1
Teaching & opening meditation
• Welcome and grounding
• Opening meditation
• Psychoeducation
Starts at 00:00 15 Min
Part 2
Guided inner work & sound healing
• IFS experiential
• Sound healing
• Closing
Starts at 15:00 45 Min
1 — "I am broken" was a child’s explanation, not a fact
When painful things happen to a small child, the child has to explain them. Blaming the adults is not possible — the child depends on them for everything. So the only explanation left is: it must be me. That sentence then collects every later hurt as more proof, until it sounds like truth. But no one ever measured you and found brokenness. It sounds true because it is old. And old is not the same as true.
2 — Your ache is evidence that something in you is intact
When you look back and something in you aches — I should have been protected, I should have been loved — ask how you know. Maybe you saw it given to others. But you could feel, from the inside, what it would mean to receive it. You cannot feel the meaning of something you carry no knowledge of. The ache is the distance between what happened and what that place in you knows. A broken compass does not ache for north.
3 — What covers it is not damage. It is devotion.
If this place is really there, why can most of us not feel it? Because the ones inside who carry the pain stand close and fill the whole window — they have been working around the clock, for years, with nobody coming to help them. That covering is not damage. It is devotion. They will not step aside for an argument. But they will turn and look. And when they are heard, and spoken to with compassion, something begins to change.
Three Insights from this session’s worth sitting with
Real questions from Sunday's Q&A, shared here anonymously — because if one of you asked it, others are likely carrying the same question quietly.
Questions from the community
1 — When something in you reaches for a way to numb the pain
Q: When things get too much, something in me reaches for something to numb it. Afterwards I feel I have let myself down. How do I stop?
A: First, please don’t make it the bad one. What numbs you is helping you get over a pain that would otherwise feel unbearable. So it is not your enemy. It is a friend that has been doing a hard job.
So go to it, and thank it. You are helping me stay without this pain. Then ask: show me the pain you are helping me get over. What are you protecting me from?
It will take you to one of the most painful things you are still dealing with — and it may not be from childhood. It can be from any time. That pain is where the work is. Working on the pain is what helps you not need the numbing. Not the other way around.
2 — When the ones who come forward look sad
Q: In the practice, many of them came and stood in front of me, silent and sad. I could not get through to them. I have done years of work. Why are they still so sad?
A: Because they are still carrying what they went through. The sadness does not mean the work has failed. It means the weight is still there.
Nobody came to them at that age. A young one who went through something needed someone to say, "Don’t worry, I’ve got you." Nobody did. And nobody has done it till now. So they are still as lonely as they were then. The only one who can go to them now is you.
Start from the place we went to in this session — the one in you that was never broken. It has no agenda other than you and your journey. From there, ask the ones in line: who wants to come first? Go to that one. Then keep going back, ten days, fifteen days, because they do not trust you yet, and trust takes returns. One day you will do the practice again and that one will not be in the line anymore. It does not need to stand there. It is with you now.
3 — "Who is asking the question?"
Q: Should I step away from my family? It feels like it is costing me my health.
A: I cannot give you that advice. And you cannot take it from a voice in pain. So the first question is not what to do. It is: who in me is asking this question right now?
If you act on a big decision from one voice in pain, another one will be very upset with you, and now there is a war inside you, not only outside. So put the same question to all of them. You saw them all in the practice. Ask: are you all okay with us doing this? If even one or two say no, you have an inner conflict, and it needs resolving before you do anything outside.
Think of a class with a teacher. Each student has an opinion. The teacher hears every one, without judging any of them. Take a piece of paper, one column for each voice, and write why each one says yes and why each says no. Then ask them to look at each other: now tell me, what is right for all of us? Very often they resolve it themselves. This can take twenty minutes, not ten years. The outside resistance is not the big issue. The inside resistance is.
4 — The one who listens does not decide
Q: So the decision has to be made from the divine essence in me — from the place in me that was never broken?
A: No. The decision is not made by that place. That place hears. It is the one who listens to every voice without judging — not "you are wrong," not "why are you saying this," just hearing.
That is why they open up. They can feel they will not be shut down, or told they are too much. When they feel heard, and you ask them to look at each other, they very often find they all carry the same concern. Then they find the answer together. You do not have to decide for them. You only have to be the one who listens.
5 — When a parent’s words were really about their own wound
Q: I can see now that something a parent said to me for years was really about their own pain, not about me. Do I raise it with them? They get angry about almost anything.
A: Don’t talk to them. Talk to their higher self.
If you go to them directly and they become defensive, a voice in you becomes defensive too, and you go into crisis. You are the one left in pain, and they may not even acknowledge it. So the first step is for you not to be sensitive about it anymore.
Do the legacy release practice from the recording, and let go of what you carry from their side. Then, if you wish, have the conversation with their higher self, inside. The sound healing in this session went to exactly this — the father’s side — and the message all through the timeline was: you have permission to speak up for yourself.
6 — When someone cannot feel this place at all
Q: What about someone who simply cannot feel any of this — who does not believe there is anything in them that was never broken?
A: Don’t argue for it. Nobody was ever convinced into this place.
Go instead to the voice that says there is nothing there, or "I don’t trust this." Speak to it directly: can I hear you out? You and I can talk, and the person can just listen. It always speaks up. And as the person hears their own voice tell everything, something underneath shifts. That something is the place itself, arriving through the act of listening. Sometimes it takes ten, fifteen, twenty minutes. In my experience it always comes.
And if you are the one helping someone else, check yourself first. Before you sit with them, ask: who in me is coming into this conversation? Does any voice in me have a concern about them? Sit with it for five minutes, hear it, and ask it to step aside. Otherwise, what you say can come from that voice and not from you — and you only see it afterwards.
Your practice this fortnight
Your practice this fortnight
One — visit the place once a day. One minute is enough. Feet on the floor, press them down once, one breath. Then your moment of being simply all right — or, if no moment comes, sit for a minute with the one in you that wants things to be softer, with compassion. You do not need the recording for this. The door is your own body.
Two — if a sentence came to you in the practice, say it inside once a day, slowly. It came from your own system.
Three — if the tired ones inside asked something of you, remember what they asked. Pick the one who wanted to come first, and go back to that one every day for ten to fifteen days, with two questions only: What do you want me to know today? And, what can I do for you? If you miss a day, go the next day.
And before any ordinary decision, pause and ask: who in me is deciding? Am I deciding from fear, or from the quiet place? The two feel different, and you can tell within a day.
If you reach for something to numb a feeling this fortnight, don’t fight it. Thank it, and ask it to show you the pain it is keeping away.
The recording, including the tuning fork sound healing, is in the WhatsApp and Telegram groups, along with the legacy release practice.
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